Cast Away

I need a break, a vacation to some sort of isolated island just for a couple of weeks. I need to lay on a sandy beach all day. I don't want to hear my name being called for some time. I want to reflect on myself in solitude where nobody asks me what is wrong with me.

I need to swim in a deep blue sea, hoping that the waves sweeps away my depression, my shyness and my idealism. I want my tears to mix with the sea water and become part of the universe.

I want to sleep under the sun rays, wishing that they melt away my sadness, my confusion and my pain. I want the sun to evaporate the sea water containing my tears and turn them to clouds.

I need to keep staring at the sky all night, talking to the moon and asking him to enlighten my soul, my thoughts and my heart.

I want to keep watching the clouds moving, knowing that my tears are part of them. I want the cloud holding my tears to to keep moving upwards till it reaches Heaven and then one Angel touches this cloud and blow some heveanly joy that mixes with my tears.

I wish that the cloud with my tears keeps floating in space for a while, releasing all the sadness and pain in my tears. I wish this cloud finally stops right over my head in a dark gloomy winter night and starts raining, replacing my tears of pain with tears of joy.